Sometimes I have this dream where it is suddenly the way I want it. But then it becomes an action movie. We\\’re torn apart by circumstances. The bad guys have you. It is up to me to save you. And I try. I struggle against all the puzzles of time. The trickery behind the mask. I try so hard. Sometimes I win. Sometimes I lose. But I wake up, and that fleeting emotion with you disappears. You\\’re not mine. You were never mine.<\/p>\n
Is this where I fall back into my bed in ridiculous obsession? A shrine? Why do I see myself almost like a pittering idiot?<\/p>\n
And this is something that I didn\\’t want to see myself. A few weeks ago, I was attached with somebody else. At this point, I came to realize that it\\’s only attachment. Nothing more. And what is this now? Lust? For some reason, it helped me gotten over him.<\/p>\n
But you seem unattainable. Why did I confess aloud today to someone we both know? Perhaps, it\\’s my vision that there are only 2 months left.<\/p>\n
There are times I say, no regrets<\/i>. But isn\\’t that phrase just telling me to do as much as I can in the moment. It\\’s not about regrets at all. It\\’s just a feeling that I did the best I could do to have that perfect life. From a movie. There are no such things as happy endings.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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