He called it a break-up. Even though we weren\\’t together. It was almost like breaking up. He asked me why I did it. Why do I do it? I gave my futile excuses. I am afraid of getting hurt. I don\\’t know how to forgive.<\/i><\/p>\n
I live my life as I feel it. Not quite logical, not quite rule-based. People come and go. That\\’s the main reason that I sometimes don\\’t understand why I am so important to someone. Why do people get upset at me when I am just one of the many people they know? Why would he be jealous of Chris Wong. Online, it will never seem like I divided my attention among people. Rather, I am as civil as myself.<\/p>\n
Sometimes I find it so much easier to talk to Chris Wong than…this Chris.<\/p>\n
I hate the feeling that…anything I do may be the last time that I do it. There are times that i don\\’t know that it may be the last time I do something. The last time I talk to someone. But that\\’s so much focus on the future. It\\’s the present that I am concerned about. Or should be concerned about.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
He called it a break-up. Even though we weren\\’t together. It was almost like breaking up. He asked me why I did it. Why do I do it? I gave my futile excuses. I am afraid of getting hurt. I don\\’t know how to forgive. I live my life as I feel it. Not quite … Continue reading him and me<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-104","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-general"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/104","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=104"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/104\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=104"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=104"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=104"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}