I am leaning toward being an atheist. It\\’s hard to decide what to believe.<\/p>\n
But the point is…I feel like if I actually confess that to my parents, they would be distraught, but not totally surprised. Yet, I don\\’t really want to do that.<\/p>\n
I do their bidding just like good children do? To attend church even though I don\\’t believe in the religion? Take part in all the rites? To me, it seems wrong. That I shouldn\\’t do the motions just to appease my parents because it\\’s all sacred. and out of respect, I should remove myself from it. That\\’s why.<\/p>\n
Yet I don\\’t want to seem stubborn and refuse to go. On Christmas day.<\/p>\n
I didn\\’t participate in Confirmation. At first, it was more because I didn\\’t want to spend so much time preparing for it. But then ultimately, it was more because I didn\\’t want to put myself through something that I didn\\’t believe in. I didn\\’t want to lie to myself and go through the motions for somebody else.<\/p>\n
And fortunately my parents have let me decide. But<\/p>\n
then<\/p>\n
it seems so trivial with other things in the world.<\/p>\n
I am too moral.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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