I feel so not at ease. I am dissatisfied. I am not that happy. I am not that happy with the way things are. Or is that just what I am think things are like right now?<\/p>\n
I saw Lulu today. We had lunch together in Walnut Creek at Tomatina. It was nice, but suddenly I found myself trying to keep up with our conversation. She kept talking and talking…and somehow I just didn\\’t want to be there. I wanted to not to talk anybody. I wanted to get away for awhile. I started getting this feeling in Pittsburgh during my first week. That I wanted to fit in, a feeling of disrupted flow. I didn\\’t fit in or something.<\/p>\n
So Shinelun came too with his brother. And so many people. It was just too much for me. What happened? I used to have talks with people without thinking of what I had to say. Without thinking that I had nothing to say. But I was stuck again.<\/p>\n
I saw Jeff with his friend James and his cousin Linda. Watched the movie on Center. Not awkward. The movie was nice, but afterwards it was ok for 30 minutes then I got that awful feeling again. I just can\\’t spend time with too many people. I didn\\’t want to go out and have to expend myself. Done with that.<\/p>\n
I hate second-guessing people\\’s intentions.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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