What happened to me. Why did I do a sudden switch?<\/p>\n
Why did I suddenly go from being the understanding great one…to the mean inconsiderate rude one. Somehow I knew it was going to happen. A self fulfilling prophecy. As I always do, I admitted that I had problems retaining long-term friendships. And he said, \\”Oh you probably won\\’t speak to me in several months.\\”<\/p>\n
I just laughed and said, \\”Noooo, I think I have changed my ways and I\\’ll stick around. I am sure of it.\\”<\/p>\n
He gave me a doubtful look and said, \\”I think you will.\\”<\/p>\n
I said nothing, because I wasn\\’t that certain of the future.<\/p>\n
And so here we lie. I am pissed off that he doesn\\’t want to fix things. So let things stand right?<\/p>\n
Earlier today, Shipra asked me to go to dinner with her. Pizza. I was in the process of trying to convince myself to go with them…when suddenly Jeff walked in and asked, \\”Where should I read? Should I read here?\\”<\/p>\n
Suddenly all those feelings of irritation spread through me and really without thinking, I said, \\”You shouldn\\’t read here. You should read next door.\\”<\/p>\n
I don\\’t know whether it was because he sense my displeasure, but then he said, \\”Oh you don\\’t want me here.\\”<\/p>\n
I don\\’t think I said anything, but he left the room.<\/p>\n
I suddenly knew that I didn\\’t want to go. Shipra, being the bubbly person she is, asked Jeff if he wanted to go. I felt this rush of spite through me and was convinced that I would not go. A few minutes later, as they were getting to leave, I declared that I wouldn\\’t go. Jeff gave me this look.<\/p>\n
They made small talk as they gathered their stuff. \\”I really want to buy new clothes in New York City.\\”<\/p>\n
My irritation spread again and I looked up. And I said, \\”You shouldn\\’t go.\\”<\/p>\n
\\”Oh is it because you don\\’t want me to go?\\” Jeff asked.<\/p>\n
\\”Yes,\\” I replied. My voice could be sensed…dripping of spite. But it seemed almost normal.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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