And my friend says it\\’s because I like what I cannot have. I want what I cannot have.<\/p>\n
I know he won\\’t last for me, because he doesn\\’t invirogate me, he doesn\\’t provoke me, doesn\\’t make me feel that I could be a better person. It\\’s nothing like feeling complete. And yet, I feel drawn.<\/p>\n
They say you can\\’t do anything about attraction. That it just comes naturally, but why this? Why? Do I just falter easily?<\/p>\n
Right now, I wonder why I feel so sad about coming back to Pittsburgh. I haven\\’t really felt like this, a feeling of bottomless pits…since…Alan left me for the first time. Or I don\\’t know when I left Minnesota that summer. It was the feeling that fun has ended and I probably won\\’t experience the same thing again.<\/p>\n
My friend says he\\’s a \\”what i feel like\\” kind of guy. And isn\\’t it just that? I don\\’t want to be caught again…like Marina. I don\\’t want to be the one where…he just says \\”I like you too\\” because he doesn\\’t know how else to respond.<\/p>\n
Always better to let it be.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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