There\\’s so much pressure for me to succeed. Not only am I compounded by expectations from my parents…but from others. I have the way I want to go in graduate school. The path I want to take. Yet it doesn\\’t seem enough.<\/p>\n
I have stared at my e-mail inbox, like I am waiting for a sign. A sign from the other side. A sign that everything is going to be okay.<\/p>\n
What pains me the most are these lines:
\nYou can\\’t love anybody else until you love yourself. You can\\’t make others happy if you can\\’t make yourself happy.<\/i><\/p>\n
Because those are the exact lines that I said about myself 3 years ago. I thought I was able to rid myself of this waste, but apparently I have not.<\/p>\n
It\\’s too easy to curl up in a sobbing ball and wish it was going go some other way. But is it better to walk around with a seemingly hard shell that is broken by one touch?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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