Loneliness appears. Then it disappears so quickly. Social anxiety?<\/p>\n
I don\\’t see how I could have superficial relationships. It makes me still feel alone. Like my sister, it would make me feel that nobody really understood me. So it\\’s like a huge vicious cycle. Those that i am close with…it\\’s too intense. It\\’s too much. But then there are the superficial ones and it doesn\\’t provide me with much.<\/p>\n
Black and white?<\/p>\n
So back at the beginning?<\/p>\n
This morning, my roommate woke up at 6:30 am. It woke me up as she did some stuff in the kitchen. Cooking and the like. I was pissed off but I just put my blanket over my head. I am never going to live in the living room again. When we first moved in, she asked if I was sure that i wanted to be next to the kitchen because it would bother me when I study. Quite the contrary. I am accustomed to noise when I study. However, I like complete silence when I sleep. Everything wakes me up nowadays. Worse yet, allergies.<\/p>\n
Yesterday, I barely ate anything. Out of excitement maybe? And as a result, i starved throughout the day when I couldn\\’t get to a restaurant or anything. As usual.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Loneliness appears. Then it disappears so quickly. Social anxiety? I don\\’t see how I could have superficial relationships. It makes me still feel alone. Like my sister, it would make me feel that nobody really understood me. So it\\’s like a huge vicious cycle. Those that i am close with…it\\’s too intense. It\\’s too much. … Continue reading it appears<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-25","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-general"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/25","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=25"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/25\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=25"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=25"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=25"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}