A rejection or the clarification of the rejection?<\/p>\n
He inspires me in no way that anybody can.<\/p>\n
We were lying in his bed for awhile after playing FFXII. I wasn\\’t sure what was supposed to happen…his sheets and his pillow smelled of him.<\/p>\n
Then I started feeling dizzy, wondering if I was making a stupid choice. So I said I was leaving…and got up to leave. He followed me and said, \\”Jenn, you make me sad.\\”<\/p>\n
I knew what the conversation was leading to and we went to the sofa. We talked about it. He was upset that I asked him the question at Ian\\’s party last weekend, putting him on the spot. My fault. I apologized.<\/p>\n
And well, we talked about it. I told him how he made me feel. He said that he wasn\\’t ready for anything and it would be irresponsible of him. He was lonely and the like. That I just got attracted to the wrong place? Maybe.<\/p>\n
Then he said, \\”But there\\’s something I want to do…\\” He gave a look around the room. I pretended to be oblivious because I didn\\’t want to be the one to say it, \\”I watch porn! I can\\’t help it. I am attracted to you, Jenn. I would want to sleep with you, but there are consequences.\\”<\/p>\n
I immediately said that it was probably a bad idea because it would get me too emotionally involved. And it would. That I would draw the line there.<\/p>\n
I hope I didn\\’t frustrate him…this must have been the third time it happened.<\/p>\n
He hugged me several times before my 15 minute walk home. I love the way he smells. But it\\’s only on the surface right.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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