{"id":355,"date":"2006-04-17T12:47:14","date_gmt":"2006-04-17T12:47:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/?p=355"},"modified":"2006-04-17T12:47:14","modified_gmt":"2006-04-17T12:47:14","slug":"all-or-nothing","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/?p=355","title":{"rendered":"All or nothing"},"content":{"rendered":"

I am beginning to believe that I should take that route.<\/p>\n

If I continue what I am doing now, then I would still be unhappy, unsettled. It would be horrible to just stay friends, but know that there\\’s something more. Within reach. But with constraints and consequences.<\/p>\n

I woke up today feeling horrible. Feeling regretful and needy.<\/p>\n

I am sorry, but I love spending time with him. It may come off that I put him on a pedestal, but I am being realistic. Me. I am troubled. I don\\’t know what exactly I want and in these past 2 years, I have figured out only part of the way.<\/p>\n

I am upfront with my feelings, but I know it\\’s not enough.<\/p>\n

So I start thinking maybe he is out of my league. He wasn\\’t so clear-cut. I don\\’t have the same intensity as others…and it\\’s not just that.<\/p>\n

\\”If I started seeing you, it would be fun…\\” Then the but.<\/p>\n

I don\\’t know how I could spend time with him knowing that there\\’s something more. That part hurts the most.<\/p>\n

So I need to figure out:
\nis it just me? is it just him? he said that it was because he was not happy, not complete yet. Whatever he wants to believe. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I am beginning to believe that I should take that route. If I continue what I am doing now, then I would still be unhappy, unsettled. It would be horrible to just stay friends, but know that there\\’s something more. Within reach. But with constraints and consequences. I woke up today feeling horrible. Feeling regretful … Continue reading All or nothing<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-355","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-general"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/355","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=355"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/355\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=355"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=355"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=355"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}