Today while in class, I started thinking about how my leaving CMU could be used to my advantage. Flings abound that is. And my recent realization of how much power I really do have as a female in a predominantly male program.<\/p>\n
But then I thought to myself how I would be dissatisfied with myself. Sure carpe diem<\/i>, but I prefer meaningful moments. I prefer words said that really are long-term. I prefer actions that have reasons behind it. I do not prefer lust and the random meaningless ways.<\/p>\n
I like the long-term. I like things that last. I like things that will be memorable, something that I can come back to, something reliable. That\\’s what i know I am looking for.<\/p>\n
So with Ben. He\\’s only slightly interesting. He would finally match my standard of intelligence, him with a completed bachelors and a masters. Now working to a phd. But school says nothing about a person. It only says something about their ambition and their ability to work with the system. One of the things many people lack is reading my mind as ridiculous as it sounds.<\/p>\n
It\\’s not that I want someone to understand me. Rather I want someone who gets me, someone who doesn\\’t have to try hard to figure out why I do the things I do, why I say the things I do. And can tell when I am being serious and when I am joking. That\\’s the connection I am looking for, but where is it? Where did it go?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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