No, the last post was not about the Chris I had complained about the previous weekend. A different one. And from my smatterings of hopelessness and hopefulness.<\/p>\n
He has a lot of energy and I don\\’t know if I can keep up. Usually, it\\’s the other way around. I am the one with too much energy and I seriously do not wait for someone to slowly catch up.<\/p>\n
It\\’s probably what was so attractive of him.<\/p>\n
Then I started wondering. Maybe I am overlooking many things. I am attracted to him because only of a few factors. The fact that we are both geeks. The easy-going way of his personality–his ability to be naturally charismatic (and popular). He doesn\\’t stop to be normal. No stopping to rest for the usual and the normal. I know I am also attracted because he paid attention to me–that usual teenage thing. He said he would call me and he did. How many people really do that though?<\/p>\n
But what\\’s missing? He doesn\\’t pay that much attention to who I am. Does he really want to know why I do the things I do? What I do? Why I do them? Clearly, he is an only child, but that\\’s a side thought. His conversation is filled with stories–of things that happened last week, last month, last year. Is there anything else? I am somewhat the same way, but I have this philosophical streak–where everything means something to me. Where the moments are the things I remember and how I felt then, here and now.<\/p>\n
I love it when we laugh together. But the sweet moments are almost tacked on like an afterthought. Just you know, shine a light on me<\/i>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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