There is this one song—Stars\\’ \\”14 Forever\\”.<\/p>\n
The hit is hammered out, the audience erupts
\nThe revolution starts in a sea of paper cups
\nWe look behind us when you cheer for someone else
\nI\\’m the only lover you can keep upon the shelf<\/p>\n
I hear it in your voice, you\\’re tired of the song now,
\nand deep inside your mind you hear a song of your own,
\nbut keep me beside you, cause it\\’s been too long now…<\/i><\/p>\n
It\\’s not even about the feelings I have when it plays. The context when I hear it, that I am around Chris, the feeling of the melody…<\/p>\n
It\\’s youthful, jubilant, a feeling of safety and comfort. The feeling that I would sacrifice everything to protect him. From the baddies.<\/p>\n
I know where it is. I am sitting at my desk, typing at my computer while he sits in my bed behind me—whether it\\’s checking sports scores, ebaying, or paypaling on the computer. I am always afraid that he will discover something horrible…something that repels him, that destroys him. I love being around him when he is happy, but when there is something that troubles him, something that worries him, I try my best but I don\\’t know what to do. I would do anything to keep him happy.<\/p>\n
And the song reminds me of that. Of how precious it can be. Because I am not strong enough to protect him from the baddies. The baddies know my weakness.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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