When I lose my own self-control, I say what\\’s on my mind. But it\\’s always because I naturally can\\’t resist what I really want to say. Why let something else dictate it to me.<\/p>\n
I don\\’t remember how it started, but somehow I let it fall in the air. I am pissed off at you.<\/i> Oddly enough, the short moment of silence did not bother me, but I could feel the intense stares. I kept my voice steady and strong, as if I was describing a standard story. I don\\’t know if I smiled.<\/p>\n
And yet I persisted.<\/p>\n
Later, he came up to me asking, \\”What are you so angry about?\\”<\/p>\n
\\”Do you care to fix it?\\” was my first response. Inside, I knew that I could not filter myself and was trying to find a way to suppress myself as much as possible.<\/p>\n
I knew his response and so fortunately I could suppress it. \\”I don\\’t.\\”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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