{"id":519,"date":"2011-12-02T20:18:15","date_gmt":"2011-12-02T20:18:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/?p=519"},"modified":"2011-12-02T20:18:15","modified_gmt":"2011-12-02T20:18:15","slug":"a-stir-of-energy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/?p=519","title":{"rendered":"a stir of energy"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I am pulled.  Yet I stop myself&#8230;perhaps due to logic and thinking.<\/p>\n<p>I never had the immediate connection.  I remember spinning around, so uncomfortable with a presence that didn\\&#8217;t communicate with me.  I broke the silence.<\/p>\n<p>I remember he was&#8230;I couldn\\&#8217;t tell&#8230;but I smiled politely as we exchanged basic information.<\/p>\n<p>It is now 10 months later.  And every time I see him, I see a kind face, deep eyes.  If I don\\&#8217;t let my thoughts and logic get in the way, I am tied, so hopelessly tied.  I am linked.  I am glued.  And I want to be.<\/p>\n<p>A few days ago after Sashimi came by surprisingly for our session&#8230;and then of course, abruptly left, he stayed.  I sat on the couch and he was leaning on the counter.  I wasn\\&#8217;t sure what he was there for, but he stayed&#8230;almost wanting.  Longing.<\/p>\n<p>There was a moment earlier as the pillows were over us&#8212;he was going to&#8230;and I was pulled into it.<\/p>\n<p>I don\\&#8217;t like to wait.  I don\\&#8217;t like to do what is expected.  I am pursuing my happiness.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I am pulled. Yet I stop myself&#8230;perhaps due to logic and thinking. I never had the immediate connection. I remember spinning around, so uncomfortable with a presence that didn\\&#8217;t communicate with me. I broke the silence. I remember he was&#8230;I couldn\\&#8217;t tell&#8230;but I smiled politely as we exchanged basic information. It is now 10 months &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/?p=519\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">a stir of energy<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-519","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-general"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/519","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=519"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/519\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=519"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=519"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=519"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}