And really, I wish that I did the same.<\/p>\n
Is it jealousy? Is it envy?<\/p>\n
I wish that I could curse every single bone in your body. That or that I could break them all. But I know that it\\’s because I am feeling helpless and I blame you for taking away my clarity, my strength. I blame you for letting me be someone who I was not. I wish that I didn\\’t bend for you. Because I am lying in despair, destruction. Broken.<\/p>\n
I feel stabs so deeply, cutting deeply in the flesh that I have remaining. And I feel the feathers of darkness move past my face. They tug on my gut and I absolutely hate it.<\/p>\n
Stop taking it away from me.<\/p>\n
Do you feel the strike of a sudden tremor when you hear my name? I know I do when your name appears and I feel only anger that seers wildly through my soul. I purse my lips when I think of you. Only contempt. I know that I cannot talk to you—because I am lacking compassion, I am lacking any feeling of sympathy and respect for you. I can imagine myself only giving you multiple fingers. Stay away from what I built so carefully and give me back everything that I gave you.<\/p>\n
Because right now, I don\\’t think that you deserve it.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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