I hate it when people tell me that I need to stop caring.<\/p>\n
Because I have learned that this is the only way to survive. That I must keep reminding people that I am still alive. Do you see me? Do you remember me?<\/i><\/p>\n
That if I don\\’t remind them, I don\\’t exist? It\\’s this tiring cycle where I keep creating, keep talking, keep making…just to have witness that I matter. I knock on doors and wonder if someone heard me. Will they come and open out of curiosity? Or to come and tell me no?<\/p>\n
I am sad. Because the terror of disappointment sticks its dagger deep into my stomach. And when it pulls it out, I lurch forward out of the momentum. I lose my balance, my footing and fall. Not into concrete, but straight into blackness.<\/p>\n
I am afraid to be alone. Because it means that beneath me, I feel nothing. Without people, I am swirling into nothingness.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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