At least this is how I think friendships die in my life.<\/p>\n
At some point, I lose interest in the friend. This is where I have lost respect for the friend. This is where I become aware of my own insensitivity. I know that I really dislike something…that I really dislike something. But what can i do?<\/p>\n
I know that I am not supposed to have these feelings. I know that these feelings lead to anxiety…which quite easily equates to disaster. This is exactly what happened to Lester. I only kept him around because he showed up and I value people who show up. But he had intense flakeiness. And other behavior things that I don\\’t really quite approve of.<\/p>\n
I know that it\\’s one of those scenarios that I don\\’t really like people who are different from me. But I am wrapped with guilt. It weighs on me.<\/p>\n
Until it doesn\\’t. Until I have walked away. Until I have ended the friendship. There is guilt about the broken shards yes. The things that I have to give up in order to end the friendship. But I have no guilt.<\/p>\n
But the process to hurt someone just because I felt like it? Well I don\\’t know if that\\’s very humane. I am trying my best to control it. Very hard.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
At least this is how I think friendships die in my life. At some point, I lose interest in the friend. This is where I have lost respect for the friend. This is where I become aware of my own insensitivity. I know that I really dislike something…that I really dislike something. But what can … Continue reading This is how friendships die<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-564","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-general"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/564","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=564"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/564\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=564"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=564"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/j.unoccupied.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=564"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}