A lot of people can\\’t get away from not having a car without a dent or scratch. It\\’s nearly impossible. For me, it\\’s the grinding shock of regret that I reversed the car too much backward. Or the fact that I can\\’t accurately guage how far my car is from another. And there is that feeling of regret.<\/p>\n
Even if it\\’s cosmetic, it\\’s…something that bothers you. It\\’s the moment you realize that something of value has…lost its value in just mere 3 seconds.<\/p>\n
Admittingly, I haven\\’t paid much for the cars I drive. The most I pay for the car is a full tank of gas here and there. I paid $200 for one accident that I had when someone else backed up into me.<\/p>\n
But the most expensive thing I have ever owned is my laptop. This aluminum powerbook. 12\\”. And it\\’s still shy of its 90 days and I already have two dents. \ud83d\ude41 One happened when I accidentally yanked a cord too far. Another was just a couple days ago. I thought my powerbook sleeve would be stronger than this. I paid a lot of money for it. But the sleeve slipped out of my backpack when I was in an angsty mood. And I thought it was ok, but later I discovered it had a dent in front.<\/p>\n
When people come near me to look at my powerbook, I always try to cover the dents with my hands. In embarassment. It\\’s self-inflicted. But aren\\’t most of our accidents self-inflicted? Sometimes people always try to find the blame. Blame someone else to make yourself feel better.<\/p>\n
But that\\’s truly psychological. It\\’s impossible to blame ourselves constantly.<\/p>\n
Oh yeah, why do people ignore my disclaimers of my journal. This is the first time I had a journal without a proper disclaimer because I haven\\’t gotten the chance to perfect everything.<\/p>\n
Why do people only look at what they care about, namely the negative connotations that I speak of? Why do people do that? I always try not to be narrow-minded and yet it seems as if people think I am so. They ignore the conflicts and my own realization that I may be. That I could harbor another perspective, but it\\’s never enough. And likewise, I am guilty of the same judgment.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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