You're lost in your dreams. Then suddenly, you no longer there, but you're somewhere else. You haven't discovered yet where you are now. Then suddenly, as your eyes open rapidly, reality comes back at full force and slaps you in the face. Or sometimes, reality caresses your forehead and you open your eyes, smiling. That's the morning's touch.

Yesterday night, Stuart came in asking for chopsticks. Coincidentially, I had just a pair that I had "stolen" from the Durant Food Court. As he was leaving, he said, "You know Jenn, you and your boyfriend are good together."
I was surprised and stuttered, "How...how...do you know?"
"Duh! I saw you guys together!" he exclaimed while opening the door.

I just realized that I weigh more than you, Rob. Haha. :)

I overslept and missed class today. Then after astrobiology, I walked back up to Foothill with Ann. On the way, we bumped into Lusa who started ranting about how her roommate was being so nit-picky. Somehow her roommate Amy reminds me a lot of Jube. The nit-pickiness of being secure and private. There was one thing in particular that I never liked about Jube--"it's none of your business". So what am I then...a friend or simply an aquaitance? It was funny though. Arial, who sat with us during junior year during lunch, once commented, "Julie! Are you in the witness protection program?" Yeah really...Jube. Did you ever really have anything to be scared about? She's in Berkeley right now. I can probably easily guess what classes she's taking now. Chemistry. Jenn the stalker!!! :D

I still feel stabbed. In the liver.

I discovered that google took a snapshot of my "v8, vegetable juice" day according to my tracker. Surprisingly, someone was searching for "asking her to prom". That just hits me too hard.

It's kinda strange though. People who claim that they're listeners are actually talkers. People who claim that they are talkers are listeners.

I had some selfish thoughts yesterday night. Where can I find hope when the last bits of my own hope have been wrenched away from me? I am dying from liverbreak.

I look back on the last few months and mutter to myself, "It's just not fair..."