I wish I can fall asleep without having to tell myself to do so.

I wish that I can wish away this pain.

I wish I can learn how to cast a spell of forgetfulness over me.

I wish that I know someone now who loved me.

I wish that loneliness would not stalk me.

I wish that I was not curious to check whether I am still wanted.

I wish that this world was not filled with insensitivity.

I wish for true happiness even for a moment.

But...I remember this question...
if you could live your happiest moment over, but you could not remember it after or if you could only live your happiest moment once, but remember it forever...which one would you choose?
I choose to live my happiest moment once and remember it forever, never to live it again. Memories are more important to me than self-satisfaction.

Oh but I do wish that I was happy as I was a few months ago...