After the CS lecture today, Tony came up to me as I was walking up from Dwinelle Hall. Mistakeningly, I asked him how Lin was doing. Thus, I was suddenly in a turmoil of the bitter day--whether I was being very strange by being apathetic toward them or being righteous in finding new personal space.

Mostly, I was able to conclude that I was apathetic. Tony kept rambling (or actually philosophically waxing) about the meaning of friendship. Sigh, I knew I had to give in eventually. Like he said, "people do care for you whether you like it or not."

Perhaps, I am being too harsh. Duh!!! Mostly, I think the results of the bitter day were conjured up in my mind. It seemed like a drama--a magnificient story--unfolding before my eyes. A story that I could manipulate into the horrors of my nightmares or the joys of my dreams. Bleh. This is going to suck. What to do!!!

Then when I told him that I am not a friendly person, he immediately said that he didn't think so.
Sigh! But it's true! I have a cruel cruel cruel mind!!!!! Cruel and unusual punishment!!!

I have a psychology midterm tomorrow. Just an hour ago, Lizt (?!) called me to confirm some of the theories. Somehow, it made me feel somewhat more confident that I knew the material...but then again...no. I don't really understand the concept of a multiple constraint system. A network that conforms to stability? What what?! Then there is the more abstract terms. Maybe it's Dr. Mangan. He's too excited about the material. Hehe, our poor innocent minds are near corruption!!!

Finally did some CS work today after Hien hijacked my computer. :p