6 am day after Christmas
I throw some clothes on in the dark
The smell of cold
Car seat is freezing
The world is sleeping
I am numb

Now that I have found someone
I'm feeling more alone
Than I ever have before
She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly

They call her name at 7:30
I pace around the parking lot
then I walk down to buy her flowers
And sell some gifts that I got
Can't you see
It's not me you're dying for
Now she's feeling more alone
Then she ever has before
She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly
off the coast and I'm headed nowhere
She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly

As weeks went by
It showed that she was not fine
They told me son it's time to tell the truth
She broke down and I broke down
Cause I was tired of lying
Driving home to her apartment
For the moment we're alone
She's alone
I'm alone
Now I know it

Boo! Poo! Hehe, I am sure Rob liked that.

Somehow now, yesterday's drama has gotten to me. It was not an act as it was to me at the time. It was like a cut in myself and the acting that I described in detail was there like a mask...to hide the true pain. I guess that's how I have been dealing with life. Oddly enough, I am feeling stubborn. Several months ago, I made the observation that I never had a strong friendship lasting for longer than a year. Was time already expiring or was I forcing it to? Xing stated a line yesterday that I cannot seem to forget, "It's not the same anymore." But that's before I had the melodramatic climax.
Well, things have changed.

I am glad that Viv told me to get in touch with people that I lost touch with. I e-mailed Dave who I had insulted before...but we got to be pretty friendly afterwards. (How ironic that it follows his path.) Oh fate. Let it bite.