I got an e-mail today from Norman. Haven't heard from him for awhile. Let's say...it comes ironically at the worst of times. If you dare read what I write below, then you're insane. If you're hurt afterwards, well hey it's not my fault. I warned you.

I have absolutely no "friends" that (A)ccept me as I am or(B)elieve in "me". When a friend (C)all me, it's not just to say "HI"; it's to ask a favor. I know for certain that Rob (D)oes and will give up on me. For that matter, Xing can't even (E)nvision the whole of me (even the unfinished parts) without creating expectations of being the ideal "friend". Also, I doubt that she has really (F)orgiven that mistake. Xing has complained that she has been (G)iving too unconditionally. Despite the fact that I was near the edge of life and death, absolutely nobody offered a (H)elping hand except for the single squeak of "yeah I still here" and the flinch of you-are-getting-too-weird-and-I-do-not-want-to-be-around-you-anymore. I (I)nvite them over and invite myself over, but when Jon invites me, it's just a guilt trip. And really who wants to (J)ust "be" with me? Mike cared more about himself and never (K)ept me close at heart. Quite obviously, he never (L)oved me for who I am, but rather who he imagined I was. But fortunately, they all (M)ade a difference in your life-making my life miserable. And yes, it's true that Mike does not (N)ever judges (note the double negative). Jason always tried to (O)ffer demeaning advice rather than support.

Hmmm...should I even finish??

(P)icks you up > (Q)uiets your fears > (R)aises your spirits > (S)ays nice things about you > (T)ells you the truth when you need tohear it > (U)nderstands you > (V)alues you > (W)alks beside you > (X)-plains thing you don't understand > (Y)ells when you won't listen and > (Z)aps you back to reality >