• break out of that fragile shell •
Thursday, October 18th 2001 09:54PM
Shells are supposed to be protective, but well, sometimes in the first place, they're aren't supposed to be there.
Despite my lack of sleep and lack of attentiveness, I was able to get the mean in my midterms. Strangely enough, I did better than the mean in CS. I am happy. Well, I did a little below than the mean in math. It's all good though. Me happy. :)
Yesterday, Alex and I surprised Marisol by showing up at a PASS event. When I called her up to ask whether she was going, she kept asking if it was me..."Jennifer Ng? Jennifer Ng?!" Hey, it was her fault for dragging me to the first PASS meeting. And also mine for remembering faces. "I recognize you! You're that girl from...PASS!" I had said to Marie.
Dude, I have social anxiety. I must admit it sometimes gets too extreme. I'll see someone I know then I'll be analyzing over and over again whether I should acknowledge their presence. By the time I finish analyzing, the moment has passed. My impulsivity only comes along when I see someone I know really well...then there I go bouncing...along. It reminds me of what Viv said. Yeah that's her new site. Only do I start singing Disney songs when I see one of my friends where when I see strangers, I give a blank stare. That blank stare is a mask hiding my nervousness and extreme anxiety.
Alex and I talked the rest of the night away. He thinks I am too antsy. Yes. Linda wore a Y in her senior panaroma. I don't know why that's revelant, but I have to say it.
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