Alas, temper flares.

Because I got geekified last year by Alan, I have been searching for deals constantly. And yes, a quick investment. I found a nice picture frame at Ross-Simons for nearly 85% off with free shipping. Then I found an xmas present for my sis (HEE!) at the Dell At Home online store. 10% off and free shipping, yet again! :D Woohoo! And because I used my special Visa card nine times this month, I'll recieve special gift certificates. Ain't being a consumer grand?

Yes, it's geeky.

There's a recent study that concluded that heavy Internet users do have social lives. Unlike the American populace, they watch less television, but they spend more of that time on the computer. So it all balances out. However, Internet users are more likely to go out...and do stuff. :p And why would Jiong state this line about one year ago, "You have no life!"
Proof: My roommates don't know how to use their computer (that is, use all the features that are available to them). However, they spend a lot of time in front of the clumsy television that was smacked in the middle of the living room. Friends, people are say, is very interesting. On Thursday nights, I spend time programming. And aimlessly surfing the net. With the TV blasting a fake laugh track behind me.

Expectations. I know I created expectations when I reached college. Or well, hopes. When I was in the sixth grade, I hoped that I would become more sociable and less anxious. In the middle of high school, I felt I had succeeded. Partially. Nonetheless, I wanted more. Then college came. I exceeded my expectations the fall semester of my freshman year. Then spring semester. Things have been going downhill ever since. Or at least heading down.
Nowadays, I seem to be self-centered. And besides, it's not the first time that people have described that about me. Society defines a friend as someone who won't let you down. Thus, I conclude that I have no "real" friends. Trust disappears so easily.
It's one of those instances that I have to question myself. Does anyone deserve the "work" I have to do to walk across campus? And to come here, it's always "it's too far!" Sometimes, maybe I do too much. I bet it's more of like, "yeah, you can do it, but I'll never do it for you, because you're not that kind of person I would do it for." During the summer, I drove to San Francisco simply for the purpose of visiting people. Rarely does anyone come to Lafayette. It's always "it's too far". Then that's when you wonder if the northside is really far from southside. Here's one reason that someone gave me: "I don't like white people." GREAT. Thanks. Remember, they're too self-absorbed with themselves to bother you.

Yes, I am getting very bitter.

It's strange. I guess I'll get a "I am not like you" comment. But I am surprised that many people don't even realize that there are very informative links below. My reasoning is...people are lazy. Or simply, they don't want to know. Told you so. DISCLAIMER.