"Yes, it becomes a huge life dilemma!" I exclaimed as Bex listened intently.

You know how it is. A few years ago, you have a vision of how you want yourself to be like in four years. Then the four years come and you ask yourself that question again. Am I satisfied with who I am? Then there is that philosophy that the progress of life can only happen if one always looks toward a better tomorrow...or a change of the self.

To say the least, that's my dilemma of the moment.

Where would I be in four years?

Today, I willed myself to be outgoing and funny. When I walked with Tram and Xing early in the morning, I ranted about my morning--how the alarm went off at 7 am, finally sat up thirty minutes later, got ready in 13 minutes, spent 10 minutes making my bed unsuccessfully and made it to class on time. Then I bubbled my way into Astrobiology, humoring Ann and Sri. Spent the three hour break alone. Then after the CS lecture, I became the bubbly, funny girl again, bursting with phrases that made Bex laugh.
Right-o.

Eeeesh, the dilemma is back.