It's festering. Again the pain has engulfed me. Whenever I see two people with their arms around each other, I cringe at the sudden memory a happy moment we once had. It just had to remind me just like that.

On Thursday, I thought that I had stumbled upon a new beginning. C seemed way...too interested. Yet, I felt very distanced. There just wasn't any connection. That was when I realized that what I once had was a fantasy. It had made him happy. It had made me happy. But to think, we never had any connections at all.

At this moment, I wish there was someone out there truly had the ability to make me laugh...and the ability to listen. By the way, Xing was the one who got me hooked!

I can see that you've been crying
You can't hide it with a lie
What's the use in you denying
That what you have is wrong
I heard him promise you forever
But forever's come and gone
Baby, he would say whatever
It takes to keep you blind
To the truth between the lines

I will love you more than that
I won't say the words
Then take them back
Don't give loneliness a chance
Baby listen to me when I say
I will love you more than that