I just want to lambast (if there's such a word) everything away. It's all starting to smell rotten.

I just haven't been feeling well lately.

It's way too easy to smile and say everything's okay. Then it makes people go away. Normal people never sense that I am simply not okay. Oh and I have always disliked that question, "Are you okay?"
Those three letters are almost meaningless. The expected answer is always "yes". I once said "no" and I barely got any response. So either way, nobody wants to deal with any consequences. Of course, I am self-centered. Everybody is. And that is the single, ultimate reason that quite frankly the answer to that three-worded question is meaningless. People always want to be happy, why make them miserable?

I finally got my bed frame built (okay with my dad's help) and plopped my old mattress on top. It feel strange finally having a wooden frame when I had always had a box spring ontop of a metal rectangle...with wheels. Pretty strange indeed. My dorm bed frame was made out of wood though. I only slept there for approximately 8 months. Seems almost like a fading memory now.
I declare this summer the worst summer in my life.