It's interesting. Viv is almost just like me.

So here I am, yet again, trying to put off studying for my midterm.

I really worry about the wrong things. While most of my friends are out worrying about grades and all that academic stuff, I worry about whether I have a social life. I mean, that's the way it is. During the summer, I became "bezerk" a few days after going to Marine World. That was to Jason. Jason C. It had irked me when he bluntly told me that I should talk to the people I didn't know in the picture. Like I should. Can I say I am bitter? Yes. Resentful? Yes. But most people wouldn't understand why. My philosophy is that you can only become good friends with only 20 out of 100 people. That is, you have 20% of making a new friend for each person. Mostly, it depends on the intentions. Sometimes you sit down at a table eating lunch with a friend. Then your friend's friends come by. You don't know your friend's friends, so you don't say anything. When you see them again, you treat them as strangers, because that's what they really are. Introductions are fleeting unless one side makes the attempt of being invidualized. That is, rather than being another stranger...being an unique individual in your eyes. And I was really irritated when Jason said that. He was being hypocritical. Was he as outgoing as he really claimed? He thinks I hate him now. Saw him once at a AAA meeting. Hid myself with my sunglasses. Haven't seen him since.

Yet, strangely enough, I remember the passage from the Bible he had left me. Christianity often makes me uncomfortable nowadays. But the passage had said, "Cast away your anxieties! The small anxieties do not matter."

Consuetudo quasi altera natura.