Do you know what happens when you try and try to get something but that something never happens? And then when you give up and you suddenly get it several months later...you are not as enthuastic as you once were?

Great.
Alston called me today.

I know I am being pessimistic...and yes despite so many vows...I am complaining about it again. I had called him about every week at the beginning of the semester and suddenly I decided no more, phone calls were getting useless if I was getting much of a response. Sigh. Then boom...while I was talking to Kathy, I got the little *dong* *dong* sound. I exclaimed, "Hold onto your horses, Kathy!" Well okay I wished I said that but instead I just said, "Wait wait...hold on..." Then there it was. Alston. Hmmm...he told me he found my cable. Okay. Good. :) *More hidden complaining* Good thing Alston is pretty disinterested in this kind of thing. :) I won't regret having to express all my thoughts now, because laster...really...these are thoughts that I experience now and does not necessarily mean that I will experience it later.
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Still, I feel major displeasure in that respect. Yet maybe Xing always analyzes people correctly...he's just so shy!!! Well so am I, but I let my alter ego take over me too much.

I finished all my finals today. I hope that I pass all my classes sufficiently. Agh, ethnic studies at least. I don't want to take another american cultures class ever ever again.

Should I go home...tomorrow...later today...or never?

We'll see.