No matter what I do, I feel almost an onset of a headache every day. Where before, it was a knot feeling in my throat. Instead now I grapple with a real undefinable pain.
It almost seems like I am discarding my emotions and expressing them as physical ails.
I can\’t wait. I can\’t wait to leave. So many people who have disconnected. So many. And there were a few attempts to patch things. Yet, if not enough time has passed, I feel bitterness. Resentment. I need so much time as padding so that I could let those bitter issues fade. So that I forget them all.
There are questions that one should never ask. There are answers that one should never hear. Why are these questions being kept asked?
Sometimes I wonder how I was able to survive the emotional turmoil. Was it my sister the constant \”suicide watch\”? Or was it my own determination, my own belief that no matter what is unpredictable…the sun will rise again tomorrow?