My latest painful experience is taking a test that I should have studied for. Go through the short answer questions knowing that I would know the answers if I had read the book more in depth. And going through my textbook after the test to see what I did not know.
The last 1.5 hours were very painful. Mostly because of regrets. GAH! How could I have not studied enough for this test?
I have this need to succeed in this class, because I need to prove that I am better than the undergrads that are in the class. I believe that i am the only graduate student…and yet I still perform at the level of an undergraduate? That is wholly unacceptable.
I could list a number of reasons why I wasn\’t as prepared as I should have been. But they don\’t really account for the fact that I just didn\’t spend that much time on this. Sure, I could say that the student competition was taking a lot of my time or that my work with Jason was sucking a lot. Yet, that\’s not really the case. It\’s more about the fact that I just…didn\’t have the dedication to study. I thought it would be a breeze, but it\’s not always like that, is it?
It\’s one of my favorite classes, yet I wasn\’t sure how we would be tested. and I just read through the book, not sure if I studied enough, or studied too little. Next time right? If I really enjoyed this class, then I should spend more time in it, correct?