Anything where I feel undecided about something, it\’s truly when I am involved too much emotionally. Once the emotions have faded, everything is much clearer as if I am seeing through a fog.
I know it would be very bad for me to spend more time with Andy, knowing his intentions and the potential of. But I still miss him. Yet the question is what do I really truly miss? The idea? Or him? In some way, I know I just miss the idea that someone was there to listen to me. In that way, I am attracted to someone who distracts me from my personal loneliness. And itself is a poor reason to stay.
I miss just having a good conversation with someone.