There are some people I have trouble calling. I just stare at the phone wondering if this is the right time. Because I don\’t want to have the awkward situation.
So I sit there, wondering and wondering. And sometimes I don\’t call. Sometimes I force myself to call. But the anxiety built up…is too intense sometimes.
Then I rationalize how some other day is better. So suddenly I feel this incredible relief and I feel better. But I still feel guilty about not calling. And so I just am unhappy partially.