Where is that moment of euphoria I am seeking?
Am I only happy if I am with someone? Do I feel lonely and detached if I don\’t have someone that I can claim as my own?
Even though I know that everyone accepts me (at least I hope everyone…), it\’s still not enough. All my life I have worked hard to be someone. And now that i am…that I can make people laugh and that people would actually choose to call me, im me to ask something…I am important…yet I still feel like I am missing something.
And that missing something drags me down. There\’s a sadness in my life as I go day to day. I focus so much on my work. I lose sight of what could make me happy.
I was at the Cage today…and suddenly I felt like I had to get out of there. I wanted to go home, be by myself…where i had the control. And then it\’s like am I the only one that feels like that?