I attended the convocation and found it to be long and dull.
I had went with Peggy and her friends. Although they were nice, I felt sort out of place. Like I didn\’t want to intrude. I guess it is ok that I didn\’t go with Thomas. I had asked him on Monday whether he was interested in going, and he said he would get back to me later. Of course, he didn\’t. I was sort of pissy about that, but I didn\’t want to im him and demand an explanation.
At the reception, I wasn\’t making good conversation so I was standing with Peggy\’s friends. Just standing, not speaking much. I felt a bit closed and out of place. Too introverted. I just couldn\’t find the energy to make good small talk. and so I did what normal people did. I eventually fled and just left the scene. Making some excuse. Study for finals.
When I returned to my apartment, I fell asleep. Sometimes I wonder how I can maintain my happy composure when I belitted by loneliness. And I hate the way that I let other people influence me by their actions. A simple acknowledgement of my existence is enough to make the moodiness go away.