A few days later into my LOTR fanaticism. A wholly contrived fanaticism, coupled with a celebrity crush here and a dream that I was involved with the movie…
I realized it was just my own urge to get away from the mundane every day things. \”I want to be on an adventure! Mountains, Gandalf, mountains!\” Biblo said on his birthday. He wanted to see the Lonely Mountain and Lake-town again. Just for an adventure. A sense of danger.
Perhaps, it\’s exactly that what I seek. Life for me is predictable. There aren\’t that many people that come into my life and make it truly exciting. Perhaps that\’s why I am on the constant prowl for my next victim of DRAMAH.
And my desire to suddenly become a producer or someone involving with filmmaking? The other day, I actuallly looked into the UCLA film school. I had felt a sudden rush of regret. During high school, I really wanted to be involved with movies. Not in front of the camera, mind you. I wanted to be part of the creation. A screenwriter. It comes from my ever-present desire to inspire. Perhaps that\’s why I like to write. I want to create something that will inspire people. In these modern times, movies are the best medium to make people cry, laugh…to move them, to make them forget their everyday troubles. Even though this kind of thing is only fleeting…it only lasts the 2 hours a movie plays…I admire the power. But then I thought about how such a path could have been burdensome. Any path to success is always filled with…missed expectations. I even thought my computer science path would be easy, that I would be at a computer, brillant spitting out pages of code. It didn\’t turn out that way. And perhaps in film, maybe I would have discovered that I wasn\’t creative. That I didn\’t have that edge. And I would be forced to do something else.
I love this line. It came from both the movie and the book:
\”All you have to decide is what to do with the time given to you.\”
There was a contest right before the Two Towers were released to write a 200 word essay on that quote. The winners would be given a library for their school and a private screening of LOTR.
To me, essentially the line is saying…Carpe Diem. Frodo had been complaining how he was given the ring. Gandalf placated him by saying that it was fate…and that there will be enough time, if it is used wisely.
I spent a majority of my time at work downloading music. To my embarassment, one of the people in the center noticed my focus on my soulseek client. he said aloud, \”Downloading huh!\” I laughed in response. \”at purdue, they have strict rules on downloading.\”
To which I replied that Berkeley had a privacy policy (although now I am wondering if anybody noticed a 4 gig blip in the ip address that was assigned to my laptop).
But the soundtrack. Every single song reminds me of the grandeur of the movie scene. It brings back the feelings. The emotions of urgency, the nostalgia, the awe, the relief.