I have lost my id. Again. Like this is the first week still.
I hate and love how I am friends with the Chris. I don\’t know why it still bothers me so much that the lifeless emotions are still there. I can\’t deny that I wish he was around, not in California. But all it really is…simple attachment. Here in Pittsburgh, I keep looking for people who are like the friends I made in my last month in Berkeley. I keep looking for people who like to make hysterical jokes. Tease each other. Basically self-deprecating joking. But everyone here is so mild. Too mature? Reminiscient of what graduate school people are supposed to be like? I try hard, but I still can\’t find my niche.
Today at the potluck for Janette\’s housemate, I found myself…wanting to leave. It was more that…we sat there in very horrible humidity and there WERE awkward silences. Ok, how did that happen? I thought that everyone would know each other. Even worse, it bothered me so much that this guy Kevin kept stuttering as if he was incredibly nervous. I almost fell asleep when he was explaining to me how to play Texas Hold \’Em. No wonder I never liked poker. It\’s so long and so boring. I personally have always liked playing spoons.
So as for first impressions:
Ron – 36 year old guy, not…very…in there. I feel like he\’s having trouble relating to a group of people significantly younger than him. Most people are 22-26. He stutters when he speaks, a pause here and there which reminds me of the annoying speaking way of one of the Chrises. But I am just being judgmental. I was able to carry a fair conversation with him.
Justin – a year older than me, attended UCSD for undergrad. For some stupid reason, during the last activity on the first day, I decided that I had to talk to an asian guy. I needed to talk to a guy rather than talk to all the girls in the program. So I just walked up to him, observed the area and started talking. We hang out the most…but dunno he\’s so quiet. I can\’t really get to his inner self that well, which is quite unusual for me. I break the shell easily, but what happened?
J anette – a possible good friend, i think. She has a lot of energy and is originally from MIT which I truly admire.
S hipra – ok I don\’t approve of the smoking. but we instantly related when we shared our fears that the people in the program would be older than all of us. She has bad habits like me…the minor ones of staying up late and sleeping in. And procrastination of course. All that makes us relatable.
Gary – seems very fun. I think I could make stupid jokes and he would actually laugh. Originally from Berkeley too, graduated a year before me. but still, i don\’t know. I always have problems with the alochol thing, but we\’ll see.
Carol – my housemate. Of course, I risk a lot of things by putting names down in hopes that it won\’t get indexed by google, but I\’ll come back later. she seems very on top of things, hopefully not too anal. Today I had stepped outside and didn\’t close the door all the way thinking I would head back to upstairs. So she comes down and sees the door slightly open and closes it, locking me out. OK….