I have heard this from two of my good guy friends: Jenn, you need a boyfriend.
Ok, so for the last month, I have been moping about the lack of one, the emo self I harbor. But I feel ok without one. Why would I need one? To be suddenly dependent?
And anyway, so many things are unattainable. I want someone who I can have deep conversations with. Someone who can make me laugh. and…despite that being so simple, it seems that i can\’t find that many boys like that.
It\’s sort of futile. At the same time, I worry myself that I am not being \”good\” enough. sure, bubbles of insecurities. Was I too arrognant? Was I too patronizing? Was I too weak? I am not sure anymore…
And now it takes a lot to make me like someone. Maybe I have been disappointed too often that I just can\’t find anybody.
I am in the middle of nowhere. I like it now, but I don\’t want to be alone.