When I first read lele\’s latest entry about her brother, I had just come off my chris-i-have-nothing-to-say-to-you incident. And my first thought was that…I was just like that. I could be incredibly obnoxious. I could be cruel. I could not care that much what others thought. Especially when my respect for someone went down to zero.
But I also have the fault of compassion. I just don\’t want people to suffer. I have this personality trait…that I want to make the world better.
Anyway, I had potatoes and a sunnyside up egg today for \”breakfast\”.
I wanted to say so many mean things to Chris. Yet, I don\’t know why. I could analyze things over and over again. I could make him feel so guilty about making me feel this way. No apologies could match. You messed up my emotions for a month, but I allowed you to do it. I knew that we had nothing to say to each other. It\’s not because you talk to people less, but we all know if someone is important to you, then you\’ll give some committment to that. If it\’s important, then make time for it. And so on.