I realize that I have this incredible desire to be accepted. I make my choices because I want to be…accepted.
For my research, I am constantly worried that my work isn\’t up to par, isn\’t up to expectations. I worry endlessly about it and I do try hard. But I wonder if my creativity is stunted. Did I just not know what to say, what to do? What happened to the inspiration?
I crumble in the face of criticism. That\’s unfortunate considering that design is such a huge part of hci. I am a perfectionist in that sense. I don\’t want to show anything unless it\’s good. And I know it\’s good. I would hide my bad work in the back, trying not to be in the spotlight at all.