I keep looking at myself from the outside. Worrying. It all started in August. Where I started worrying about what I was saying, what I was doing, worrying about what to say. And ultimately, I started doing it all the time. And even with friends that I knew well, I had this feeling. I couldn\’t lose it. I didn\’t feel as free as I did. I haven\’t been able to get to a point where we would be talking for so long that I didn\’t realize that time has flown by so quickly. But that\’s it, right?
And I worry that it just isn\’t working. And that worry drives me crazy.