Rule #1: do not get attached.
Things quickly disappear as quick as they appear. I spent some time with my friend today just looking for some food. We ended up driving to a spot next to the San Pablo resevoir and we talked for more than an hour while just eating donuts and drinking hot chocolate. We walked around my old high school, just talking. It\’s a slight reminder of how Alan was like. It\’s hard to tell myself that I really am not that interested and not attracted. Friends first. Friends always.
And at the same time, I don\’t want to be a rebound especially after the end of such a long relationship. I don\’t deserve that. And I am afraid that I might mess things up again.
Let it go. Friends then.
I already prepared a mental speech if the occasion ever does occur. Not now. Not yet.