jsldfjlsfdjsa, I succumbed to my wimpiness again. I am such a scaredy cat sometimes. Social anxiety can take over me…so easily that it prevents me from doing things.
Just like that incident 2 years ago with ocf. I went in and suddenly felt out of place, I had to leave. Then i tried to go back but I felt embarrassed and weird…and could not get myself to the door.
Those type of incidents happen less frequently nowadays because I am starting to phase into the adult thoughts of idon\’tcarewhatotherpeoplethinkofme. Yet today, I was supposed to conduct this survey. I had selected a time and a location. Yet by the time I got there, I started convincing myself that it wasn\’t the best thing to survey. I wanted to survey people on how they decided to go to the movie playing at the student center. And I was there at 7:40 pm when the movie would start at 8 pm. But I started rationalizing the next 15 minutes that I chose the wrong event to survey. That I couldn\’t bother people because they would be rushing to their seats. That I wasn\’t getting the right audience. That there wasn\’t enough people attending this movie since it was a Wednesday night. Of course, these rationalizations won out and I walked out. Personally that wouldn\’t have been the best event anyway, but still.
I missed the google infosession today…and so as a result, I miss a great chance to just pass the survey up and down the rows of lecture hall. BLAARGGGGH….why did I miss it???