Earlier in the evening, I was feeling somewhat morose that jeff wasn\’t around.
Then he ims me around 1:30 am. And it\’s ok at first, but then suddenly my irritation at my his negativity (as of late) just boils over. I can\’t stand the fact that he has to complain about his group so much. His project. He keeps talking about how his life is a mess. Whatever. He\’s taking 3 classes while I am taking 4. He has a part-time job just like me. He thinks his project is SOOOO hard. If I could, I would yank his head around…force it the right way. Look at yourself! Look at how miserable you\’re making yourself by thinking everything in the world is just THIS horrible. You only think of yourself…and surely, you believe you should, but you\’re so neglecting a major part of your life.
Granted, I should give him a benefit of doubt because he did end a relationship of 7 years. But wait. Somehow, after thinking, I don\’t think Helen was really right for him. Maybe I got biased by someone\’s comments, but she was really too good for him. He always described her as antisocial. And what, I met her and she isn\’t. I don\’t even know if what he describes about her is true. If he and I ever have a nice escalating argument, I probably will use that against him. That would be painful, and I really don\’t want to do it. It\’s wrong, but when I am so pissy…it could happen.
Ultimately though, I don\’t know…I just don\’t know…he can\’t do it right. Social skills are lacking, but that is always the case, isn\’t it.
One day, I\’ll burst again.