I complained to Alex today about my fear of class participation. He empathisized, yet it still drives me insane because I don\’t know what to say. Somehow if there\’s a lot of slack time and the right mood, then I can really participate. I can say so much and I will seem like I said a lot. But whatever. I try and I try. And I hate that feeling I get when the instructor says…\”it\’s worth a large portion of your grade…\”