When sitting in a classroom where the goal is to participate, I am overcome by anxiety during the entire class. I try to think of things to say, but they all seem utterly ridiculous and unintelligent.
And the more I try to think of something to say, the more anxious I become. And then it all comes to a point where I have a headache and I feel so dizzy that I can\’t even come up with anything to say. And that itself causes more anxiety because now I am in a state where I can\’t say anything.
And I just want to hide and start over. I don\’t want to be there. And I am not relieved when the class is over because now I am anxious that I didn\’t participate and that my grade will go down and that gives me a bigger headache.
ARGH.
Until I come back again.