Every time I talk to Marina, I feel bad about myself. And thing is, that is probably what she wants. She does want me to fall into weakness, to have her really get to me. I put on this facade of obliviousness.
But the thing she says, I let it get to me.
So today while I was at the interactive exhibits, I talked to Keith, but I saw Marina approach us. So I mentioned quickly something about how we weren\’t getting along and I left quickly. But then she found me later when I was talking to Adi. And basically was angry. Granted, maybe I should have not mentioned anything to Keith, but that was bound to happen. My fault for mentioning that we weren\’t getting along, yet she overreacted about it of course. And well, here we are, we aren\’t getting anywhere. And I feel my extroverted side go down.
Why do I let what she says get to me. So I appeased her by saying, \”Yes, I can\’t trust anyone. Yes, I know people are probably saying something negative about me. And I did predict that things get spread around.\”
So I held up this false facade for a bit as she walked away. Then Adi walked over to me, but I sort of turned away. I let my hair fall over my face and suddenly all over this got to me. I let my tears fall a bit. Adi got me a napkin from the snack table and I tried to regain my composure.
\”Don\’t someone ruin your time here,\” he said. \”You\’re here to have fun!\”