I like a boy who can sing. Because singing is almost a way of expressing one\’s self. It\’s hard to find many people who are that open of themselves. To expose themselves to vulnerability.
Other: Carol once said she liked Marina for her vulnerability. Now that\’s completely different from above. Marina talks so much, so much about herself. What\’s vulnerable about that?
Now: I miss Berkeley. I miss being me in Berkeley. I miss being with the people I circled myself around with there. I miss being comfortable and strong…and not embarrassed or insecure. At Foothill, I always had this feeling that people really did like me. They never thought I was annoying or irritating. And I knew what parts they didn\’t like about me. I was that confident. (although I can\’t say the same about the office.) But here. Gone is the security. I go everywhere thinking that people don\’t want me there, that I was only invited because of obligation, because I am her roommate, because I am in the program. I am tired of trying to assume. Why do I have so much insecurities?
Future: \”Will I find love?\” he kept asking.
Where did my sense of humor go.